Saturday, September 8, 2012

Just Another Word?

The same day, that I had to familiarize myself with a new word, I read this:

                    Sometimes I break down
                    overwhelmed by my losses,
                    those past and to come.

                    I unleash crying,
                    fifteen minutes at the most.
´                  Then I dry my tears.

                   I don my joy cloak.
                   It shields me from sorrow’s aim
                   while I heal inside.


15 minutes was not quite enough for me I am afraid, as it seems that 2012 is testing me beyond my limits. So what is the word?
Having to add another diagnosis was a hard "slap in the face" for me. The "only" reason we found out was that it is mandatory to get the examination when being prescribed cortisol - never did I imagine that it would come out postive.
I know that there are treatments to keep the symptoms/progress down, but I have yet to find out, what the doctors' plans are.... It is the uncertainty and "what's-next" feeling that is eating me up from inside. Readng other bloggers' stories abouth additional diagnosis to their MS, I have ofteren wondered: How do they handle it in their mind?
Need to reconnect with the crafting mojo again to let my mind deal with more positive things, and hopefulle resume my photowalks soon (the fractured arm made photographing hard to do)... just getting a little normalcy back might make the new path a little lighter to walk.


Maria :) said...

I´m here for you my friend...and will cry and craft with you if needed

Vicky said...

As I was reading your post, the song, "Only the Strong Survive" came on the radio and that certainly holds true in your case.
I am here for you too. Take care of yourself.

Judy at Peace Be With You said...

Anne, I am so so sorry for this news. You might want to consider this, though. Unlike your other diagnosis, though, osteporosis has proven treatments that actually work! That includes treatments that are medical and others that are natural. I wish you all the best as you navigate this new path.

Karen said...

I'm sorry to hear your news :( It is difficult to comprehend how one will carry on when faced with such adversity, but you CAN do it, and you will. It is at this time you have to call on your inner strength.

A lot depends on attitude as well, positivity and optimism are often wonder "drugs" in themselves.

Having to deal with a few autoimmune diseases has led me on the path to be in control of my own health and healing. I am not a passive patient, depending only on what the doctors say. I have researched alternative methods of dealing with pain and discomfort, and along with conventional medical practices, I feel I am doing eveything possible to manage my diseases.

Try not to think too far ahead, concentrate on getting through one day at a time.

Take care of yourself. You are in my thoughts.


Anne-Marie said...

Anne, all of the above is good advice, especially the bit about positivity. I know you to be a glass half full type of girlie, so hang on to that....your optimism will stand you in good stead. My faith in God, the prayers and support of my family and friends, and a positive attitude all helped to get me through cancer. Believe in what is good for you, and move forward with faith. Prayers are being offered, my friend!